but i got the ambition....
First off, I would like to thank my friends who commented last week and assured me that my blog is still read on occasion!
I worked my first weekend back at my job. The biggest challenge so far has been convincing my body that I'm not kidding. I really am doing this to it again. My brain wants to sleep during the day, really badly, but my body's not cooperating. For example, I stayed up late Thursday night hoping to sleep late Friday. I woke up at 8:30. I tried to take a nap that afternoon before I had to go in to work, and slept about 45 minutes. I worked from 7p-7a, and was very tired, but when I got home my body said, "Hey, you can't fool me! It's morning! There's daylight! You should be awake!" I finally fell asleep about 9, and woke up at 12:30. And then repeated that process on Saturday night and Sunday morning. I'm working again tonight, but only from 11p-7a. This shift actually works pretty well for me, because I can usually sleep for a couple hours before I go in because 7 pm is the time my body wants to go to sleep anyway. I know, I'm a party animal.
I wish I could say that it's just been great to be with my patients again, and don't get me wrong, everyone at work has been fantastic and I've had a couple of good nights. But I've just been reminded of the ugliness of this world, which was relatively easy to put out of my mind for the last month or so. I'm going to have to say that I feel that people who believe humans beings are inherently good have never taken care of an abused and battered child. All weekend it was like I could hear someone saying.....we were made for something different than this broken, broken mess. We need redemption.
To lighten up a little: I watched the Oscars last night with Steve & Co. I am so happy that Slumdog Millionaire won, what a great movie. Loved Kate Winslet's dress. Felt super uncomfortable for Jennifer Anniston as she had to ham it up with Jack Black 5 feet in front of her academy award nominated ex-husband and his academy award nominated baby mama. Was slighty baffled by the people there (Sarah Jessica Parker? Miley Cyrus? High School Musical people? Jessica Biel?). Happy for the accountants that carried in the results down the red carpet with a special announcement....you go get your moment of glory, CPAs of America!
it's a mad mad mission
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