Monday, February 23, 2009

our bodies get bigger, but our hearts get torn up

The tiny Josh "it's a beautiful world" Casper on my shoulder has been nagging me all day since I made the previous entry. So I thought I'd share my favorite Philip Yancey quote (which I'm pretty sure I've put on here before, but it's good for me to remind myself again):

I have tasted a little of life's tragedy. I have tasted of it's comedy. I keep walking because I believe in the fairy tale, that God strong and wise enough to create a world stamped with such beauty and goodness will be faithful in restoring it to the original design...I place a bet on God's firm promise that in the end, all will be well.

it's a mad mission

but i got the ambition....

First off, I would like to thank my friends who commented last week and assured me that my blog is still read on occasion!

I worked my first weekend back at my job. The biggest challenge so far has been convincing my body that I'm not kidding. I really am doing this to it again. My brain wants to sleep during the day, really badly, but my body's not cooperating. For example, I stayed up late Thursday night hoping to sleep late Friday. I woke up at 8:30. I tried to take a nap that afternoon before I had to go in to work, and slept about 45 minutes. I worked from 7p-7a, and was very tired, but when I got home my body said, "Hey, you can't fool me! It's morning! There's daylight! You should be awake!" I finally fell asleep about 9, and woke up at 12:30. And then repeated that process on Saturday night and Sunday morning. I'm working again tonight, but only from 11p-7a. This shift actually works pretty well for me, because I can usually sleep for a couple hours before I go in because 7 pm is the time my body wants to go to sleep anyway. I know, I'm a party animal.

I wish I could say that it's just been great to be with my patients again, and don't get me wrong, everyone at work has been fantastic and I've had a couple of good nights. But I've just been reminded of the ugliness of this world, which was relatively easy to put out of my mind for the last month or so. I'm going to have to say that I feel that people who believe humans beings are inherently good have never taken care of an abused and battered child. All weekend it was like I could hear someone saying.....we were made for something different than this broken, broken mess. We need redemption.

To lighten up a little: I watched the Oscars last night with Steve & Co. I am so happy that Slumdog Millionaire won, what a great movie. Loved Kate Winslet's dress. Felt super uncomfortable for Jennifer Anniston as she had to ham it up with Jack Black 5 feet in front of her academy award nominated ex-husband and his academy award nominated baby mama. Was slighty baffled by the people there (Sarah Jessica Parker? Miley Cyrus? High School Musical people? Jessica Biel?). Happy for the accountants that carried in the results down the red carpet with a special go get your moment of glory, CPAs of America!

it's a mad mad mission
sign me up

Monday, February 16, 2009

you are, reaching...

for something, that is beating

I had to sign into blogger to comment on my friend Claire's blog, so I thought, what the heck! I'll post something. I have NO idea if anyone is still reading this, and I don't know how to put one of those site counters on here. Like most things involving technology, if I don't already know how or can't figure it out in less than 4 seconds, I give up and get my sister to do it. And she's not here.

Well, tomorrow I start back on night shift. It was nice to be part of the world again for a while. I'll miss daylight. I'll have a couple weeks where I'm switching back and forth between 8 am orientation classes and 7p-7a night shifts, so if you see me around I'm not ignoring you, I'm just unconscious.

I really am getting excited about being back at work with my friends though, I've gotten to see a lot of people who I really missed.

I hope everyone had a nice Valentine's Day. I have always liked Valentine's Day, no matter what, mainly because of all the chocolate. Chocolate is good, with or without a boyfriend. (Valentine's Day candy is only trumped by Easter candy, which is awesome because of Reese's, Milky Way, and Snickers eggs.) But Lauren was my domestic valentine...she made us dinner and then went to see a movie, and it was a fun night. AND when I got home from the movie, my thoughtful international valetine had sent me flowers. Tulips and irises, my favorite. So all in all it was a great day. Except that the international valentine is so far away.

Things that made me laugh this week:
1) (It a gril!)
2) Ben, always
3) 30 Rock (but not The Office =( )
4) Sheila's stories about teaching (I like robots!)
5) gold teeth